Thursday, April 09, 2009

a day of hope


this morning I had an early doctor's appointment. I was hesitant to go. with a little push from my sister, I went. and I sure am glad I did.
no one wants to hear the "you can't have kids" or "something is wrong with you" when trying to have children. I am afraid of that news so I put off going to the doctor as long as I could.
this doctor's office was pretty sweet. it smelled really good too. then I met my doctor and I felt like I was sitting with my aunt aud (one of my favorite people on this earth.) she assured me that we would walk through steps together and really made me feel like I wasn't crazy. and she LISTENED to me. I was glad. I feel hopeful. many more appointments to come but I am looking forward to finding an answer. thanks to those who write me and give me hope!


on the way home I called my dear friend jen. she feels like home to me. we volunteered at the sallie house in florida together. I fell in love with a little boy the first time we went. she told me today that he might be up for adoption soon. and you better believe I will fight for him. I can't think of anything better than bringing him to our house. he would be safe, loved and we would read lots of books together!

9 comments:

Rosie Toesies said...

This post made me cry, really. I am so happy that you found a great, caring doctor that understands and is there to help. And the idea of Adopting is truly sweet and special. That little boy couldn't have a BETTER family and home. It must be meant to be, really.

Jennifer Williams said...

mommy days are coming soon!!

Brenna said...

Tracey, I love reading your blog. It's clear you are meant to be a mom. May your journey to motherhood always be filled with hope until your dream is fulfilled!

Lizzie Sorensen said...

It will happen. One way or another.

wanda said...

Tracey although I don't know you well I do know well enough to know that God put you on this earth to be a "mom" but that will be in God's time...please be patient and relax and breathe. Blessings

Hiles said...

Isn't she the best!!

Tania said...

you are going to be the best mama ever!

Lara said...

A child that comes into your life in ANY way is still your child. Everything happens for a reason.

Cade and Cora said...

This struggle will be a vague memory in a few years and it will make you appreciate and love those babies oh so much more! love you!