Tuesday, August 04, 2009

it's time to move on


there is only so long I can try to do things and then it is just time to move on or pause for a while.

trying for over a year and a half for a baby.

even two months on strong medicine that could have possibly given us enough babies to have a tv show

but out of it all, we have ZERO.

we are tired, sad and don't know where this road is leading us.

I feel like I'm losing faith. and people that haven't been through this might not understand why I feel this way.
but nonetheless, I do.

it is tiring hearing people say, "relax, it will happen" or "it is just not the right time."

so, we are going to plan some place fun to go together and get away and have a few blue moons.


and in a few months, maybe we will know what is next for us.

7 comments:

alice232 said...

I'm very sorry. I know its an AWFUL place to be in. It took us almost 2 years to get pregnant. Its taken my sister 3 years and she is finally expecting. The emotional pain is beyond description. I feel for you and hope that you come to a decision about where to go from here and that you find peace in that. Will pray for you...

Cade and Cora said...

sounds like a good plan for now-- Always praying for you guys! Don't give up! Sometimes God's plan and timing is impossible to understand, but HE has a plan!

Brenna said...

I can't imagine the emotional toll, but I can fully understand your need for some time away. May refreshment and clarity be yours!

Amy said...

you don't know me, but i've ordered from you before and enjoy reading your blog. just wanted to give you a bit of a pep talk...i've been down this road. just know that god has a plan...you don't know what it is yet, but he does. one day, you'll be like me and completely understand what he was doing and why. hang in there...

amy

www.sweetbaby-z.com

JULIAN & Co. said...

tracey, here is a virtual hug for you!!! from your friend in san diego.

KristinG said...

Isn't it so unfair that life's lessons are often wasted on people who already know...you don't seem like someone who takes much for granted, it's just not fair and that's that. You are already a mommy in your heart, when you have that baby in your arms this will all be a distant memory. Thinking of you. Enjoy your getaway.

Anonymous said...

When one door closes another one opens. There is a baby for you. Maybe even one that needs you more than you could ever imagine. You may just need to look behind the door.