Thursday, January 21, 2010


over the summer while we were enjoying the sunshine and fresh produce

we were also struggling with infertility. I know I have written about this a lot on my blog but it was a big part of our lives for so long. once we began fertility treatments we were given a new hope. after a few months, that hope had faded. I sunk into a deep sadness inside. I didn't like to talk about it much (this is so not like me either).
my husband was slipping into it, too, I felt.

one saturday evening I was to stay at my sister's house overnight for some reason. I can't even remember. we had just found out that we were, again, not pregnant. I decided to come home instead and when I did, I found a devastated husband. I remember walking into our bedroom and seeing his face. it is something I will never forget. he had lost hope too.

that night he explained his dream to me--to conceive naturally, for us to be pregnant and for him to watch my belly grow over 10 months. inside I felt this was never going to happen. I became even sadder because I felt I was, in a way, letting him down. I knew he did not feel this way about me though. he was expressing his dream to me and how he had always envisioned it.

the night I found out I was pregnant I was beyond shocked. I still am, somewhat.

he is now watching my belly grow

dreams do come true


kaylin rose and mara anne said...

wonderful story...and yes they do come true!

Fran and Jen said...

what a beautiful baby belly that is too! So excited for you both!

Lelan @ Good Gravy! said...

Gave me chills...beautifully written.

McMurrays said...

you made me cry. . what a amazing story. . thank you for sharing!

Cereal In My Stiletto said...

all teary now... wow, still so happy for you. And happy that both of your dreams are becoming reality.